real or not real?

I've always been thinking
this is the biggest
bullshit.

Love at a first sight,
in the middle of the night.

But once
I saw a guy
holding a book
in his arms.

I wished I was
the story you were reading,
described in all words,
and you were holding
a love
hidden in these pages.

I tried to
make a step away
from you
but I cannot
retreat
from you.

Days, months, years,
this fight is full of tears
and my mind
full of the coolest
fears.

I don't know
what to do
but ever since I met you
I am trying
to forget you.

To the love that never left.