I don't know what's happening with me.
since a year now, i am confused.
I've always been an organized, positive and productive person. But suddenly i had a problem. what is it?, you may ask. i didn't know. i still don't. when i'm alone, i often feel miserable. i tried to figure out why. i found a lot of things in my life that aren't so great. i tried to change them. i did change some. but i don't feel better. so i pick a new problem that i'm going to obsess over for the next months. at least i have a reason to be sad about. at least i can feel like i'm doing something about it. but the problems don't stop appearing. and my mood swings don't either. when the sun shines and i walk on the street and listen to music everything feels great. i look forward to the future, i appreciate what i have, the world is beautiful. i am happy. but when i sit at home alone, the world feels big and scary and meaningless. things i usually enjoy aren't fun anymore. the future scares me, my problems make life unworthy of living, the world is a confusing mess.
i don't know what to do. is this a normal state of being when you're a teenager? am i sick? am i overreacting?
I don't know.