You can crash down in very different ways. But here I am not talking about the crashing down on the floor, crying. I am talking about the crashing down when you gasp for air and you want to scream but all you can do is cry. You think about ending your life. you are on the railway or you have a rope, a gun, a knife, a piece of glass, anything to end the pain. But then you realise that your knife is to blunt, your gun is missing bullets and your rope is too long, so when you jump, your feet will land on the ground. and even that the train is delayed or arriving at a different platform. On that moment you realise that you can never be good enough. That you fail in everything even ending your own life. You can't seem to do the right thing. That everything in your life is empty and miserable.