One advice I keep hearing when talking about bulimia and binging is "Let Yourself feel". The idea is that instead of using food as a coping mechanism one should just give in and let themselves feel.

But what to do when your feelings are so intense. Sometimes I don't think I can handle it on my own. I don't think I'm strong enough.

But the thing is I have to be. It's not a matter of can I or can I not. I have someone I love and that someone loves me. I have a little sister who needs me. I have to many people that would be devasted if I gave up on myself.

For the longest time I couldn't see this, but it's the truth, and for all of them I have to be strong. Because they need me at my best, and they didn't deserve to have to fight me at my worst.