Self-Pres·er·va·tion
/self ˌprezərˈvāSHən/ (noun):

  • The protection of oneself from harm or death, especially regarded as a basic instinct in human beings and animals.

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The term self-preservation in its simplest definition is:

A set of behaviors that individuals attempt to preserve their own existence & the mental processes that establish these behaviors.

What is Self Preservation in 2018?

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Can I get an AMEN?!

To "self-preserve" is to take care of yourself without apology, and without a second guess. Think of it like a human version of Animal Planet.

You know, where the beautiful lioness hunts poor defenseless elk to feed her young? Yeah...self preservation is that LIONESS.

& by the way: YOU'RE THE LIONESS.

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Yummm.

Sigmund Freud 👈

I am hoping you've at least heard of the name.

  • Mostly because he is the pinnacle of communication theorists.
  • He is the founder of Psychoanalysis (the study of the unconscious mind)
  • He has set standards & proven that human connection is a necessity to life.
  • & he is a theorist of TRUE self-preservation.

According to Freud:

Self-Preservation is purely a behavior solely used for sexual instincts. The Encyclopedia goes on to mention that Freud:

"claimed that a person's life is conditioned by two major forces: self-preservation instincts, by means of which people preserve their own existence, and sexual instincts, by means of which they ensure the survival of the species."

I'll let you swallow that for a second...

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  • So basically... "Self-Preservation" is guided by my sexual instincts & not my pure willingness to kick ass in life??
  • You're also telling me that my insane need to be the best is driven by my inner horny bitch dog??

& here I thought I was BORN with the innate sense of the self motivational direction called Self-Preservation because I am a 4'10" spitfire who still gets carded for shit even though I'm 29.

...You've got to be f**king kidding me Freud.

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Forever overthinking is my specialty.

Here's the 411:

I don't believe my inner sexual & horny bitch dog is the reason for my Self-Preservation. What I do believe I am driven by is:

  • The DESIRE I have for success.
  • The LOVE I have for myself.
  • The RESPECT I have for my future.
  • The YEARS of fighting I have been through with a body that beats itself up just to move. (I have RA; more on that later)
  • & the years of emotional damage caused by parents I spent fixing in order to NOT be a horrid bitch who hates life. (also more later)
  • I f**king DESERVE to have unwavering Self-Preservation. I fought for it tooth & nail.
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X-Tina is LIFE.

Overall? DESIRE is not a sexually driven emotion. Neither is LOVE.
Therefore my desire for Self-Preservation & the love I have for myself do not coincide with Freud's true definition of the term.

I think I'll leave Freud's definition of Self-Preservation for the bedroom:

  • Where I am conditioned by nature to preserve my own existence by not dying from hunger after the act of woohoo; so I drink all the water & eat all of the food because SELF-PRESERVATION told me to.

- xoxo