I've been meaning to write this for like two weeks but life got in the way (as usual).

However things haven't changed as much as I'd like to say... Don't get me wrong, I'm feeling a little better but that's only on me, no one has changed their attitude torwards me.

I don't think I should be expecting any kind faces or gestures, so I'm not. The less you expect, the less disappointed you get when nothing happens.

That's always been my motto and I really don't know why I tried to change it on university!

Yeah, yeah I might have wanted something different, but people (at least here in my country) are all the same, and I know it is bad to generalize but I'm from here so I've dealt with them my whole life! (I know what I'm talking about, y'know?)

Is it weird that I no longer feel part of them? Just like you can change your birth gender because you don't feel like that anyomore (or never have), can I change my nationality and pretend that never happened?

Can a country accept me because I feel like an outcast on my own? That'd actually save my life...
That would be a dream...

But how silly of me! Of course other countries would accept me, if I only had the money! But that's part of the problem... I DON'T HAVE ANY!

You know what? Whatever, it doesn't matter, I can't do anything about it, so why worry? (hakuna matata, am I right?). I'll keep pretending that everything's fine because apparently that's the only thing I'm good at.

If you read all of this and feel this or get it, please know that just by living in a country that isn't Venezuela, you have hope, you can save yourself and never is too late!

If it's faith what you need, I belive in you!
If it's love, know that I love you with all my heart!
And if it's something else, I'm sending it to you right know, whatever you need I am giving it to you. Because I know what it feels to be hopeless and worthless, so I'm here to tell you that you are loved and THE best human being on earth right now!