i feel empty
truly drained

with life swirling around me in a blurry circle
i can't seem to grasp what is real

last year
i needed someone to be there
i needed someone real

drowning in tears everyday tired me
sleeping everyday tired me
breathing tired me
walking around with swollen eyes everyday tired me

everyday seemed like a reoccurring nightmare
where i would pretend to be ok
pretend to be someone i wasn't
pretending i didn't want to die

i truly wanted to give up

getting out of it was hard, but here we are
the result i'm left with is feeling nothing
i'm ok with that

-i