Hello everyone.

Still going with the 30 days writing challenge (created by @themermaidwriter). This is a rather depressing entry.

Day 23 - Write a page of a diary

February 22nd 2018

I'm walking on thin ice. The future is uncertain as ever. I wish that I could change something, but I know it's in vain. And all those coping mechanisms seem to do nothing, the painful screams never end, I wish that I was dead.

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Your whole life was nothing but a lie. Seeking help in others did nothing but to ruin you. You hid away from all those fears, trying to deny that there is something wrong with you.

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Outsmarted, too many times. Not good enough for me and you, never been the best I wanted to be. But it's okay. Though there is no one near you, I promise you. I know just how you feel.

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I'm sorry that my kindness was mistaken by gullibility. I honestly wish that this was nothing but a dream. I just wanted to let you know that sometimes you're so alone, that no one gives a damn about that thing that is consuming you.

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And I've been told so many times that I'm sleepwalking in real life, but it's only because outside are white lies, being told by those people that I thought I love. But the sad reality is that those were the same people who told me to shove off.


I don't know what this is. It started like a letter to myself, then I thought it would sound like a song? Anyway, it's slightly different in my notebook, but 99% of it it's what I wrote.


You can find the previous and next days below, alongside with the collection where I will write all the articles on this challenge.
Day 22
Day 24

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