Hello readers, this is just an average girl going through high school getting ready for life. I have a lot of things that i am dealing with and I want to write because I write in my computer for myself. It helps me deal with things and maybe it can relate to someone. This is my issue that I can't seem to deal with for the moment.

I have a friend. We were close and we become really close through the two years we got to know each other. He was really sweet and gave me the sweetest birthday gift this year. We did everything together for the most part. We decided to get involved in a really big project together for our school. We raised money for it and got the supplies to start. However he was no longer interested in the project even though he took credit for the idea. I tried to get him to work on it by switching my schedule to fit his yet he still wouldn't show up and would make excuses. So I decided to do the project by my self with the help of some other friends. However this ruined our friendship. Afterwords we were no longer that close. He even said some really mean things to me.We still have to be around each other since we have the same classes and friends. Now I have to pretend to be nice to him even though he does not care how much he hurt me. The thing is that I don't know how to feel about him. Do I remember the sweet things he did for me and just choose to forgive him? Or continue to be angry for this terrible thing he did to me? I feel like I cant do both but neither one makes me happy.

This is something that has been bothering me for the past few months. I don't know how I'm going to deal with it but I'll let you know.