I've always struggled with friendships.
As someone who's been bullied through out mid and high school, my self esteem is not exactly where it should've been.
I struggle to trust people now. Because most of the time, they just end up hurting me pretty bad.
I struggle to connect with people, because I feel like nobody ever really understands me. It's so much easier to just judge me and use me and then throw me away that people choose to do JUST THAT.
So no, I don't have friends. I don't have BFFs with whom I can gossip to my heart's content and share my unnatural obsession with Dita Von Teese.
I'm learning to accept that maybe I'm just one of those people who never really has a true friend. Surely I can't be the only one this weird among other fellow 7 billion Homo Sapiens.