I love you for all the times u looked into my eyes and made me forget about the world.
I love you for all the times u sat next to me and i forgot how to breathe.
I love you for times u put a smile on my face just by looking at you.
I love you for all the times u made me feel special and made me love myself.
But i also hate you
for all the times i let u come back into my life accepting your fake apologies.
I hate you for all the times u ripped my heart apart and left me pick up the pieces all alone.
I hate you for all the times u looked at me wishing i was her.
I hate you for all the times you said you'll never leave but still left.
I hate you for all the times you said you would never hurt me but you kept hurting me over and over again.
I hate you for all the times i saw u with her blaming myself for not being good enough for you.
I hate you for all the nights i spent missing your voice, crying my lungs out.
I hate you for all the endless chances i gave you and you using them all against me.
I hate you for all the times you told me you LOVE me and
Miss me and
Think about me, when you never meant it
And i still
Fucking
Love you
Like crazy
with all the love you were never able to give to me.
And the thing is,
I think i always will.

-B.