The wind blows quiet as I smoke my cigarettes in the place I last saw you. I lean back with my head over my hands, the stars don't seem as bright somehow. Maybe the sky is sad because you left, or I've reached a point where everything around me seems as depressing as myself. That's probably it.
A girl walks by and she looks at me intrigued, she probably wonders what the hell am I doing laying like that with my cigarette at the verge of burning my face. I would tell her if I knew but I don't know what I'm doing anymore. It feels like I'm an spectator at the lousy ass play that my life has become. I don't feel in control anymore, everything revolves around me out of my reach, and I couldn't care less.

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The ashes fall and burn my face but I couldn't be bothered to move. I've gone from feeling sad to feeling numb, and I think that's somehow worse. But I'm not sure why.
I wish I could ask you, you always seemed to have the answers to everything. I think about it now and I'm pretty sure you didn't, I just liked the way you told your lies, like everything was just fine.

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I have this stupid flowers that I bought for you, but it's not like you are ever going to see them, so I might just throw them away. A piece of stone with your name carved on it doesn't need flowers.
It just started raining, how funny. I hate rain, that's the only thing that could make me move right now. It's almost like the clouds knew. Are you whispering my secrets in their ears? How typical of you, trying so hard to make me happy. Damn it, you just made me laugh like an idiot running under the rain.

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I look for you in everyone I see. But no one has eyes as gentle as yours. I should stop thinking about this now but I just can't stand that while I run soaking wet, you are peacefuly sleeping under the pouring rain.

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