Loving is hard
Really hard
I’m young and I’m not expected to fall in love yet. Although even if I did I probably wouldn’t know.
But I think the closest to falling in love would be when I met him.
He...
He is amazing, he makes me smile when I can’t.
He was told this but he didn’t listen.
I should give up, I’m young and I have a whole life ahead of me. I have plenty of things to distract me but none of them work.
I can’t help but daydream about what could be, rather than think of reality.
I texted him everything I thought (well almost everything)
I told him with a lot of detail as to why I like him so much.
I gave him time to think.
All I asked in return was an answer, I proper one.
No matter what the answer was I told him I would respect any answer he gave me.
But he didn’t really answer me. He gave me a cowards answer and it hurt, it hurt a lot.
It burned my heart and left hot tears tears rolling down my cheeks.
I just wanted an answer
It left me thinking bad things about myself. I had just started to be confident with my body and my mind. Then he comes along and ruins it.
So if what I feel is not love, then what is it that’s hurting me so much?
Thanks for reading xx
