HI LOVELIES !

Guys I'm so happy, I genuinely feel like I have reached that peaceful state of mind.

Because of the break up, I started this year with such a negative attitude and outlook on my life and how shit everything is going to be. I can't say I'm 100% over him yet, but I know I wouldn't return to him or I have some sort of romantic feelings towards him anymore. Although, I know he will always have a place in my heart and I will always care about him. Like no matter what, I know that if he ever needed somebody to talk to and he came to me (for some reason) I would listen and be there for him. I'm that type of person lmao, I'm nice to people even after they hurt me.

The only thing I have been missing about him is like the things we had in common, or any inside jokes we had. Its like those things where there was only one person you could talk about with and now that person is no longer there so you're stuck in your own thoughts about the topic ? Yeah, it sucks. I try not to let it affect me, I just deal with the fact that this memory or hobby we shared is now only a me thing and I can't really do anything about it. I would honestly still be his friend, even though he doesn't deserve my friendship at all, I'd still give it to him and the other 3 who hurt me. I would never approach them about it first though, because he doesn't deserve that satisfaction of me "needing" him in my life (which I totally don't).

LOL ALSO, I'm going to explain this as best as I can. So he unfollowed me from instagram (Idk if I mentioned that) like a while back. I unfollowed him too lol, like I'm no fan to keep following him. You know how you can post stories on ig and then save them to your profile ? Well, if you guys follow me on ig (@ kathleengonzalezz) I have a few stories saved on my profile. It shows who views the stories, like every time somebody new views the story, it'll tell me who. So Vince keep freaking viewing my stories which I find so dumb in his part. Like obviously he doesn't know that I can see that he's viewed them lol. Like what was the point of unfollowing me if you're constantly going to be preeing my shit ?? Idk, it's weird.

But yeah, I can finally say I'm happy. Like I feel like I can move on in peace and yeah theres moments where I get sad, but I talk myself out of it. It's life and breakups happen unfortunately. I feel at ease with myself right now and I know I'm going to move on and be happy in the future. I also know damn well I'm going to find another guy who will treat me RIGHT and the proper way that a guy should treat his girl, not the way vince treated me.

LOL imagine if he ever found these and read them and was like wtf. Hi Vince, I hope ur life is great and I'm sorry I posted about our unhealthy relationship publicly. Keep prospering boo, I'm doing great.

HAPPY THOUGHTS GUYS, JUST THINK POSITIVE AND IF YOU WANT SOMETHING DON'T GIVE UP. KNOW THAT UR FUTURE IS IN YOUR HANDS AND YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE. IF YOU WANT SOMETHING, SHOOT YOUR SHOT AND GET IT. NOTHING IS EASY, BUT IT CAN BE EASY IF YOU TRY. THE UNIVERSE IS YOURS AND WHAT IS ASKED WILL BE GIVEN, WITH TIME.

xx

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