I just feel so strange. Like I am breathing, but I am not living. My emotions are just too overwhelming and right now, I have no idea how to deal with that. I am searching for things to cope with, but I am removing myself slowly from everything that helps me. Going out and everything that is okay, but I can’t find the control. It’s like I’m walking through a big green forest and slowly everything turns black. And I am totally panicking and I can't find the strength to inhale air. Because every breath of fresh air makes me weaker and weaker. Sad songs in my mind like thoughts, but they are just so far away. I have so much anger in me but the only thing I do is scream inside, yet no one hears, no one feels, no one knows. And suddenly everything is the same as before, and you can’t seem to escape.