Going out and talking to people feels exhausting. I always feel so small among a crowd or when I have to ask something, or I have to buy something in a store, for example. Sometimes people are so rude or they are nice but I feel like I am bothering them. I feel like it's so hard for me to simply ask a question in a class or just giving my opinion. I feel like everyone has a better opinion than mine or that I will be judged for thinking in a certain way. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me or treat me like a child (because I know I don't have too much experience about life, but come on, I'm fucking 19 years old). I just want to understand why I always prefer to stay alone or why I feel so psychologically imprisoned by other people and by myself.