i have pierced my skin with a knife. it didn't hurt as much as people in the movies have shown it.

it also didn't help my depression.

it actually made it worse. it showed me that even the physical pain would not relieve me from my emotional pain.

that made me hit rock bottom. that made me start doing other things that i thought might help. nothing did though. everything made me realize that maybe i couldn't get better. i had lost all hope in ever regaining my happiness.

nobody got what i was going through either. everyone told me all the "amazing" things in life and how i couldn't give up. that only made me more depressed because i couldn't see what they were talking about.

it seemed like nothing could help.

i don't know if anything ever did.