Dear crush,

I know you're probably wondering why am I writing this. Well, the answer is pretty simple.

I'm giving up.
I'm giving up on you.

You still wonder why?

I met you four years ago, but we only started to talk three years ago. At first our conversations were just about basic things. School mostly.

But then we started to talk a bit more and I've get to know you a bit more. And I was slowly falling in love with you. I fell for you so hard that I didn't even care you had a girlfriend.

I loved you.

That was all that metters. These past three years were the best years in my life, thanks to you. Even though, you were only my crush.

But then, few months ago, I've made a biggest mistake I possibly could. I got drunk.

And somehow after this experience with my drunk self, you've changed your opinion on me. I still don't know all the things I've done that night, but I know what I did to you.

I do, now

Darling, I can't even describe how sorry I am. How much I regret it. But I can't turn it back. Believe me, I'd love to.

It hurts me so bad that the girl which was with us and which slapped you is still your friend. Apparently, she is still your best friend.

You know, I realised that I had to woke up from that sweet dream one day. And the day is now.

I know it will take some time till I'll stop loving you. But I want you to know that I'm always here. You know, I still see you as my big brother. As my friend.

I wish I'd be brave enough to tell you how sorry I am.

Maybe one day.

Love you.

-A