oi, oi, oi, oi, you. guess what? i'm depressed again! woo hoo.

why does this happen to me? why me? i am barely a human being anymore just a sack of emotion and tears sitting on a blue spotty bed, with my computer, crying. i can't do this. i can't. my life i being pulled out from under my feet. i'm constantly hiding emotions. i've been depressed all day. the only person i talk to is my best friend because i can't bare to be told by my family again 'That I'll be ok' because guess bloody what, you said that 2 years ago and look where we are. i've seen adults they have less of eye bags then i do. i'm getting suicidal, i felt like cutting myself today. i wanted to jump of a building. i'm really holding on by a strand. i'm not ok. i'm not 'fine'. if i ever say that, just know i'm lying. i've become so used to faking my emotions. it's a habit. i made a promise to myself at the start of the year that if i was depressed i'd say something to someone, anyone. but that's already well and truly out the window.

depressed, angry, and tired image