Dear T,
Please forgive me, for I am unable to show you the love you deserve. I know you said that you've been to hell and back, and that you have bad trust issues.
Understand that I know what you are feeling and going through. I'm sorry that its too hard for me to tell you that i'm a wreck. I've been to hell, the same as you. Only I stayed.
I wont blame anyone else for the way I've dealt with my pain. I just knew that I was hitting rock bottom again, Getting out of bed was a dread and I started to pick myself apart again. I know getting up from this rock bottom postilion was going to be difficult, and i needed to uses all of my strength to do it, I just couldn't bring myself to the idea of putting the pressure on you. so i had to do the hardest thing I have ever done in my whole life.That was letting my best friend, my future, my soon to be everything go.
You didn't take it well, i assumed you wouldn't. Just know i'm sorry, and i know 'i'm sorry' wont take away the pain. But right now i need to focus on myself. I think you should do the same. Let me go, you'll find better out there, I promise.