I have felt heart ache. my heart has been fractured before, but broken? never.

As dumb and idiotic as it may sound i want it to be broken. i wan to know how it feel. i want to feel the pain for myself. I want it.

most writers during this time reach the peak if their writing, i want to see how creative i can get. and to be able to look at the world in a whole other way.

i want to spent countless nights up late at 3am trying away at my laptop or furiously scribbling words onto my journal. and from all that pain, slowly grow, and be enlighten then see life in a new perspective.

i'm am just curious.