There's nothing revolutionary about it; heart break sucks. Being lovelorn also sucks very much.
There's this boy I've really liked ever since I was young. I thought about him constantly, talked about him constantly, and was haunted at night with dreams of us together. I finally decided that enough was enough and I told him how I felt.
I put my heart on the line and I was greeted with a harsh reality; he didn't feel the same. At all.
Maybe it was a bit harsh but I now had my answer and I could finally move on. Right?
Well if by 'move on' you mean continue to obsess over him years later and constantly break down every time I'm reminded that he doesn't feel the same then yeah, I had completely moved on!
I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. Why couldn't I move past this? Why did he still occupy such a large portion of my thoughts? Was he my soulmate? Was this a sign that I shouldn't give up?
Well, he's most likely not my soulmate and I think I've finally pieced together why I haven't been able to move on.
I was idolizing him.
Word of advice: DON'T DO THAT TO PEOPLE! It's not good for them and it's definitely not good for you.
My mind had created him into something very different from who he actually was. I heightened all the good parts about him and seemingly erased all the bad. I kept telling myself that I could only be happy if I was his but that's not true.
He was just person just like me and we were not compatible. He wasn't my soulmate, he wasn't the keeper of my happiness, and he wasn't my prince. He was just a boy. A boy who was unlucky enough to catch the attention of a loving fool.
Though it did take me a while to piece this all together, I'm finally getting better. I'm finally moving on and all I can say is hallelujah!
To all my lovelorn readers out there, though it does suck and I know that you don't want to hear it, you need to move on. They are not the end all be all and you'll be happier once you've forgotten about them.