this writing is a little jumbled because it all came to mind at once, but here it goes:

I just wanna be staring into your deep brown eyes. They're the only thing that cleared my cluttered mind. Now that you just up and left, and lied without warning, those eyes are the only thing I want to see. Those eyes are the only thing I can think of. I just don't understand how someone can profess their love for someone, ask them to be their girlfriend, then just drop off the face of the Earth. Did you get scared? I don't blame you. Our friendship was always unpredictable and I couldn't make up my mind half the time. BUT the only thing I want, and the only thing I'm finally sure of is you. You're my soulmate. I know it. I can feel it deep in my bones. They say 2 people who find each-other time and time again have fate on their side. Like the world is saying "STOP SEPARATING, YOU ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER!" So, where did you go? I'm waiting for you to come back. Please come back soon. I need to hear and see your voice calling me "babygirl" again. This morning, I cried so hard I nearly threw up. This is the worst pain I've ever felt. Come back, and let the 5th fall out be the last. I can suddenly see us together forever. I'm about to go get a bus ticket from the miscellaneous market and ride 2 hours to meet you under the 2 arches of the Brooklyn Bridge...but I won't. Until you talk to me again, I'll be zoning out staring at these white walls while the days drag on. I miss you, I need you.