I believed him.
I was blinded by love.
Could I even call it love?

It pains me to know his playing. But it pains me even more not talking to him.

I wish he was mine.But i feel like we're better of as friends.
Or could we even stay friends?

Would my feelings grow?
Would I hurt myself even more by loving him?

I can't take this Im sick of everything, people calling me by his name,
him always smiling at me ,people always screaming at me just
please.... I want to scream and just stay in a dark room.
I want to be alone.
but yet I also want to be next to him.

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sorry if I have wrong grammar or it just looks messy as hell, I'm still learning how to do all this >.<