If there's anything that I've learned it’s that falling in love sucks. I mean yeah it’s a beautiful thing, don’t get me wrong. But it isn’t worth it when you go through so much fucking heartbreak and pain and the person you love might not love you back. then u crumble. You become empty and you have to pretend to be heartless when in reality, your so damn broken and no matter how hard you try, you can never be the same. Then your forced with seeing the person you love being happy without you and that just makes you break even more and then you become so heartless you don’t know what it is to love someone again. Your feelings are so fucked up and you’re so fucking confused. You have no idea if you're in love with the person or the attention they give you. And when you finally realize you like them, no you love them, but you’re afraid, you’re petrified of loving again. you imagine how amazing it would be and you can feel your ice cold heart melting, but you're still fucking afraid.