have you ever been so pissed at someone for coming into your life?
or for impacting you so hard? I mean seriously, knowing you really effed me up. I always think abut you, and a text or anything from you puts the widest smile on to my face. When my friends play around and mention your name, i smile and laugh and the smile i have won't go away. I hate it though, the impact you have on me. I wonder if you do the same. But you don't. Ironically enough, after I found out what you said , the next day I saw you. My heart stopped. I just happened to look to my left, i saw these boys walking; my eyes fell on one particular figure. I looked away so fast , I was shocked. I hadn't seen you since last year. I kept walking, my mind was swirling with thoughts and my heart racing. I keep wondering why you kept on in the relationship if you didn't love me. I keep thinking that the reason you left was just a then feeling. That you've matured. That maybe, just maybe those i miss you words that you told me 3 months ago, or those i fucked up in losing her words that you told my best friend 4 to 5 months ago were actually true. I just can't stop wondering...
- Ellie ( I'm sorry this is so long, i have a lot of feelings about this.)