How confuse is to feel lonely and feel like you want to be alone at the same time? Have you ever wanted to be alone all the time but felt like you are lonely? See, being alone and feeling lonely is not the same thing. You can be surrounded by friends and feel lonely. And you can be on your own, alone in your house, but be sure that there is people that you can trust and that you identify, this is kinda obvious. But isn't it confuse when you feel like you want someone's company in special but anyone's company at the same time? Like when you project a "perfect" person to be your company but you just keep waiting for that person to appear in your life? It's a feeling that you won't fit anywhere in the world and you feel sad about it but when you find some place where you could possibly fit you feel so afraid that you run to your comfort zone again. Someone once told me: "what could possibly go wrong if you talk with the boy you like?" or "mingle, make new friends". But that person didn't understand. Actually they understood. They saw my "I don't want to be lonely side" but they don't saw my "I want to be alone side". Or vice-versa. I don't know. I'm just sitting here writing my selfish toughts expecting someone to understand ou relate. But if it doesn't happen I just needed to say this and whatever.

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