I used to live my life day to day, my depression was really getting the best of me. I isolated myself from people I love and just lived by myself, felt always alone even with everyone beside me. I was getting mad for no reason and I was just sad. Always.
Since the beginning of 2018 I kinda changed but I have no idea how it happened.
I only have contact with the people I feel are good for me and I don't really miss the toxic people I never could get out of my life. I still have episodes of panic rushing through my vains or my blood boiling, I still get sad for no reason or just need time for myself when I just cry. but
I feel happy most of the times, or just normal. I look at world how I used to. I'm finding myself again. I see the beauty of everything, I try to go out, I try to live, I feel like I'm living in a movie that I don't just star in but am making it.
Just like mother nature taking back her earth over trash left by people I'm taking back my body, soul and mind over being trashed by demons that run it for about 6 years now.

I'm gaining control over myself and over my demons.
I'm the boss of me.