It's crazy how the closest people to us can become strangers in seconds!
I thought about this a lot, i looked back at each and every person who was there beside at one point and the next i try my hardest to hide from them...
And it hurts, it physically and mentally hurts when you remember how much time you spent with them and how naive you were when you thought that they would last forever... to not be able to trust anyone anymore... to restrain yourself from meeting new people because all you are thinking about is how they're going to hurt you in the end...
How memories can kill us, and how the heck can make them alive inside us...
I wasn't the kind of person who got attached to anyone, I am actually pretty hard to get close to... i do not trust you until you show me that i could... I'm all about actions not words... but when you get there, when i finally open up to you, i give you a special place in my heart, a place i know that it's ruined the moment you hurt me...

I got to a point in my life that i stopped talking to everyone i knew because of that one person, and eventually... that person left me all alone...
It felt like i lost everything... i had some really bad days, days that i put a fake smile on my face, and days where i cried my eyes out in front of people i don't even know...
As days went by, i convinced myself that no one deserved my tears... no one deserved the trust i gave... and that's how i started to live again after days of wishing to die...
Currently, i struggle with meeting new people... i prefer hiding in my room than going out... but something has changed...
i looked around and found that though i lost lots of people but i still have a few who became so much closer... who stood by my side when i wasn't myself... i still find it hard to give everything to them but i try...
Sometimes it gets hard to even try to breathe... it gets hard to trust... and feeling lonely becomes a reminder that no one cares... but actually, some one out there cares... some one out there wants to help you... you just have to open your eyes and look...