It’s been a long time since the last time I wrote but you know, I’ve finally reached that point again, that point where life has me thinking a lot.
First of all, this post is going to be, basically, me wandering about my life, my thoughts about practically everything, my shit, you know that kind of stuff, so if you don’t like it just don’t keep reading okay? We are all friends here so don’t be rude. And I have to say that English is not my natural language and even if I’m good at it I’m not perfect, just a little reminder.

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Do you ever feel like life goes too fast? Every day I wake up and see how much everything changes and we don’t really pay attention to it. There has always been something blinking on my mind, something I didn’t like and that I didn’t want to believe but it was there. And that thing is that one day, none of the things we’re doing right now will be here anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to be dramatic and I’m not some depressed girl laying on my bed trying to figure out my life goal. Not at all. I’m growing up and I think that the most important thing is understanding what is yet to come because if I don’t, reality will hit me harder than a train.
Do you ever get scared about the future? Because I do, at every freaking minute and I think I’m done with it. Anxiety is trying to kill me, but just for you to know, I’m relentless. In a few months I will be in college, and that’s freaking me out, but it’s great I reckon. As I see it, it will mean I will have reached a huge point of my life, and it’s overwhelming. If I’m being honest I don’t know if I’m prepared for it, I live my life going day by day, as a routine, without a plan, just following the common road. Is it my road? I don’t know, and I don’t know if that’s good neither. But we’re here, and I’m sure I’m not the only one with this sort of issues. I’m going to study “children’s education” (I don’t know if it’s called like this but you get me) and I don’t even like kids, I don’t hate them but it’s not like I know I will enjoy it as I should, but I’m gonna do it because it will be good for me, you know? Because it will make me focus on someone else and the most important, it will help me grow up and mature. I know it might not be the best choice, but for now, it’s what I need, and I know I’ll be good at it because I will give everything I got to improve. Leaving that aside, I’m also an ambitious person and I would love to study something else like history, philosophy, English studies, Spanish studies or history of art, I love those, and I would love to get to know a lot about them, but there’s a huge issue with that. They wouldn’t help me find a job, and let’s be honest, I need one, we all do, and for that reason, this is the first thing, in my whole life, that I am going to have to leave for my own good, even if it hurts, even though I may feel that I am making a mistake, although I may feel that I am disappointing myself, sometimes, and this is one of the most important things to learn, sometimes you have to look ahead, you have to be strong and forge your way, even if it's not perfect, because it never will be, and follow it, because in the end, the only thing that It will last, will be your path.