These days I've been feeling like I'm not living at all. I catch myself thinking all the time: what if I die tomorrow? What if I sleep today and don't wake up tomorrow? What if I live the next 10 years and don't realize my dreams? What if I wasted too much time? What if I spend the rest of my life afraid of being myself? Or afraid of doing something I really wanna do? What if I am going in the wrong way or taking the wrong path? Why is it so hard to take the first step? What if I never take it and only die trying? Those thoughts are just around my mind.