I was just visiting friend
And I collapsed on to my bed
My phone starts to go off
I pick up the ringing device
Looking at the familiar number
I answer the phone
I hear the voice
They speak in a soft tone
Tears slowly start to drip off my face
I see her the next day with a bandage
covering most of her arm
Laying there cold as stone
I hug her
Praying to try to get her back
But nothing would happen
My mind went numb
Not knowing what to do
I start to cry
And I start thinking
Why wasn’t I there for her when she cried
Why wasn’t I there to notice the changes
Why wasn’t I there when she needed me the most

No matter how much I cried
And prayed
She wasn’t coming back

And I'm not ready