Every time I feel like I can breathe again, I can't. Every time I feel like I can do it on my own, I can make it, I can't. The worst part about it is how bad I want to be able to. I want to be able to move on with my life, everything else is going so well, it's just you. I want to be able to be happy with someone else, to move on, And I want to be able to say that I'm happy that you have too, but it's so hard. And I know you don't care, it doesn't, it didn't affect you like it did me. You were never heartbroken, you never felt the air being pulled from your lungs, you never felt the earth move beneath you. I needed you. And I know that sounds bad but I did. I trusted you with every part of me, I trusted you enough to give you every part of me. I trusted you to not let me fall, to sink, to not leave me alone and I wouldn't be left in the dark. I know now that I didn't need you as much as I thought, because I'm doing just fine on my own. But that's it, just fine and i can't help thinking how much better I'd be doing if you was here. I'm still working on some things to better myself. I understand that maybe it wasn't meant to be. I understand that you're probably not coming home and maybe t's better that way. I hate that it doesn't affect you the way it does me, I hate how you don't and probably will never understand how I feel but I don't hate you. I've learned to accept the fact that you didn't love me the way I loved you. And even though I still suffer some of the side effects of being heartbroken, I also have the side effects of being in love. You got into my head and made a bed, you carved your name into my heart so I cant help but love you, I am forever scared. And that's okay, I can handle it but I cannot keep letting you get to me. I have t get over you as much as I can. I have to be happy for you when you fall i love again, and I say again because I know you loved me. My body knows that if you called my name I'd come running. But right now I have to let you go. I can't drop everything for you, I can't ignore my feelings and what's right for you anymore. I have to learn how to be happy without you. I'm letting you go.

Love, Jordyn