Sometimes I wonder if it’s normal to be this sad. How can someone get this sad? How did I get this sad? How did I get here?
I just wonder if I’ll ever have a normal life, without this hidden pain that comes out when it’s quiet, when I scratch a bit on this dry painture. I’m tired of running, but I am also tired of this place draining what’s left of me away. When I go out for a walk or when Im bored or when Im sad a song just plays in my head with the only lyrics ‘’You need to get out of here, run away, run away, run away, run away, run away, run away’’.
Each time one of them leaves my whole world flickers.
I’ve always said I can’t say I'm a very sad person, but a very angry one, always mad at the world. But right now, I don’t see the difference.
For if have I learned:
Where there is anger, there is always pain underneath.