I wish.

I wish I could change the way I am
I wish I could talk to people normally
I wish I could make friends
I wish people would listen
I wish someone cared
I wish someone would notice something is wrong
I wish I could change the way I look
I wish I was talented
I wish I could be normal

what should I do?

should I change the way I am?
should I try to talk more?
should I change the way I look to fit in with others?
should I tell them how much it hurts?
should I open up more?
should I tell someone how hard it is to get through each day?

what if?

what if they just laughed?
what if nothing changed?
what if nobody believes me?
what if they just laugh?