Before we start this, I should probably introduce myself.

Hello, my name is Mack Taylor. I was the girl who wrote that coming out story. And I thought why not, make another post on some stuff I go through.

(If you'd like to get to know more about me, then please do comment saying I should do a post about myself, I don't bite.)

I was diagnosed with all three of those things at a young age. It also wasn't very hard to tell I had them either. In fact, most of the time when the teacher would be talking, I'd randomly get up, and start yelling for no reason. This caused kids to grow scared of me, and I had no friends because of it. Having a combination of Adhd, and Bipolar was not good. That meant I would not focus, be all over the place, and angry 24/7. But, on the days I didn't yell, I felt alone. I'd sit in the hallway, refusing to partaken in class, and wait for them to send me to the office.

My grades eventually dropped, I never learned the stuff I needed to know, and I started shutting people out.

Now what most people think is Bipolar is either you're sad or mad. But it can also cause depression, which is something iv'e dealt with a lot. Locking myself in my room,and ignoring my loved ones.

If you've ever watched Shameless, and seen how Ian acts with Bipolar, that's pretty similar to how I can act sometimes. One minute you're happy, putting on that fake smile, and then the next this.. sadness washes over you. And you don't know why.

It sounds crazy.. I know but it's true.

Fast forward and now i'm 8 years old. They've now given me proscription pills, and required me to take one everyday, and if I didn't they'd force me to.

I hated taking medication, it made me feel crazy, and like I was different from everyone else.

I didn't wanna be different, I wanted to fit in. I wanted to be seen as their normal daughter who they loved no matter what. Then this is where the anxiety came in. I started thinking that they didn't really love who I was, they just loved the fake side of me, the side I wasn't.

The pills helped the Adhd, helped my brain focus better, but if I would've paid attention I would know what the kids my age do, and be just as smart.

I still had no friends after I returned to school heavily medicated, and it sucked. But I then met two girls who asked me If I wanted to draw with them, and I didn't know it then, but those two girls changed my life for the good. However, I'll tell that story later.

Now it's 2018, I'm still taking pills, still lonely, but happier. I came out to my parents, (You can check that story out in my other article.) and the medicine isn't as bad as I thought. Anxiety is still there, but I am getting better with dealing with it. And ya know those two girls, well one of them isn't my friend anymore, but the other one she's the most beautiful, bundle of joy I like to call my best friend. I'll tell you guys about her on another post, but she is the nicest person I have ever met.

I'm 14 about to turn 15, and trying to get through this thing called life. If it helps, my personality is a lot like Daniel Howells, we both deal with depression, but keep smiling no matter what. I recommend you watch his video about depression if you have not yet, it made me feel a lot better.

Anyways, I should be posting some more today, but hope this helped!

Be sure to DM me if you're having a hard time, yes I may be awkward with responding, but I will do my best!

Have a great day! bye.