Hi. This is Demi, I’m sixteen years old and I don’t really know what I’m doing right now. I’m just going to write down my thoughts and practice my English a bit, since it isn’t my first language.

I’m from the Netherlands and I’m at that point in my life where everyone is expecting something from you. Everybody is expecting me to have my life figured out. I have to know it all. What I want to be when I’m older and how I’m going to achieve that. When they ask you about it, and you reply by saying you have no idea, they’re kind of shook. They don’t speak it out loud, but people find it kind of weird. Doesn’t she need to start building a life for herself in the adult world, where everything seems so fantastically amazing and enjoyable?

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Well, let me tell you something. I’m sixteen. Sixteen. And I’ve definitely not figured everything out yet. And I don’t understand why on earth everybody expects teenagers to. I’m in my year before my exam and we’re currently looking at studies right now. And let me tell you something else. I’m lost. I’m so lost in all these boring studies, when you think you found something that could be nice, It’s just not. I don’t really know how to explain it. And sometimes I just feel like I’m the only one. It seems like everybody around me knows what they want. ‘I want to become a lawyer’. ‘I want to do something in business’. ‘I want to be an architect’. I’m happy for them. I’m happy that they have something that they can work for. That they can get out of bed and have some sort of goal in life. I wish I had one. But I just don’t know.

Teachers can be so pushy and annoying sometimes. They want to help you with your choices, but at the same time they find you uninterested and lazy at my age when you have literally no idea what you want. Isn’t that what you are supposed to help me with? Same goes for parents. I’m not saying my parents aren’t supporting me in my decisions, for as far as I made them, but sometimes I feel like they don’t really get me and the fact that I just don’t know who I want to be when I’m older.

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So, these ended up being some random thoughts that I’m sharing with you guys, because maybe there are some of you out there that feel the exact same way as I do. If so, I just want to let you know: It’s okay. No matter what other people say and no matter how many of your friends know exactly what they want in life. You’ll get there. You’ll find your passion and you’ll be a happy human being. Thank you for reading this and I hope it helped you in some kind of way and respect for reading it all lol, it ended up being kind of a long article.

Note: I’m not sure why I’m posting this. This is my first article and it started by me sitting in my living room thinking about life. Maybe there’ll be more articles in the future, but we’ll see. I kind of enjoy writing. Oh and if English is your first language and you happen to see some mistakes in this article, feel free to send me a message because as I said I’m Dutch and I’d really like to get better in English.