i wish you love
i wish you warmth
i wish you happiness.

i hope she brings you everything
your heart needed someone
and i was too late

watching you every chance i got
ruining myself to be
next to you
friends with you

underneath you.
i wish i lay
there were times i nearly did

holding my face
watching me wither away
into you,

into your heart,
intertwined
like lovers would, right?

i was too late
i watch you smile as she walks
i watch you cry when she hurts

whose fault was it
that you aren't mine yet?
not you, nor her,

but me.