thantophobia
(thant-oh-foh-bee-ah)
noun

the phobia of losing someone you love

Why do you do this to me?
You spread in my mind like a computer virus;
Though I say I've let you go,
I know deep in my heart that I haven't
I keep telling my self no,
While my eyes say yes.

Why do you do this to me?
You take over my heart like the Pied Piper;
Though I deny my love for you,
I let myself dream on
I keep saying I'll get over you,
While my heart obsesses over you more.

I loved every little thing about you;
Small smiles, sarcastic remarks.

I loved every little thing about you;
Little quirks, lowkey kind deeds

But you would never know

I have to let you go

i don't even know what this is... i just started typing... it's about my crush (? is he though?) irl... true story everyone, true story...