We used to talk 24/7. He told me he loved me first. He romanticized our conversation first. I did not do anything to pressure him to confess to me. I asked him, many times, if he was sure and if he wanted this. He always said yes. I am so naive and I wanted to believe him so badly, that I did. We both knew it would be hard, because of family, sexuality etc (don't really want to get into that yet). I asked him if he wanted this again, I told him that if he does not want this, he had to tell me now, because if we waited it will hurt more. He kept saying he wanted it, and I believed him.
On friday he told me never loved me, he was just confused. I tried leaving him, because that is the best and smartest thing to do, right? But my stupid a** came back after a day. I tried to be friends with him, but it was awkward and I could not be friends with someone I don't trust, someone I love, someone who fu**ed with my feelings just because he was unsure of his own. But I had questions. Why would he tell me he love me if he was confused and what made him tell me? What he told me broke me into many pieces. He told me he is not over his ex-bestfriend and crush for 2.5+ years. He told me he misses her so much and that he does not know what to do.....

PLAYLIST FOR K:

Still Think About You - A Boogie

Wish I Never - Joey

I Have Questions - Camila Cabello

In Touch - Travis Mills feat. DYSN

Dear No One - Tori Kelly

How You Gonna - Sydney Renay

Grenade - Bruno Mars

I Hate U, I Love You - Gnash feat. Olivia O'Brien

Wrecking Ball - Miley Cyrus

IDFC - Blackbear

Find What You're Looking For - Olivia O'Brien

3 A.M - NF