i had found out
i had known
at a time i didn't expect myself to.

i didn't know your body would fail you,
nor did i have knowledge that
you will finally leave.

i seem like i am not
affected or am not
mourning.

but as i write this letter for you
i am
deeply, solemnly weeping.

tears are falling down
myself's facade crumpling to nothing.

for you, my beloved, who rested.
if not but better, in peace
and in a gentle lull

for you, my dear
i wish eternal euphoria
eternal bliss
and a happy, second life.

an emerald sky
may rest upon you
who didn't leave
but slept.