It’s been a month or two since you’ve passed. I truly miss u so so much. I blame myself everyday, I could’ve been there for u. Yet i was too afraid to even say hi since I thought u didn’t want to be friends. You were like an older brother to me, u were like the only person that understood me and what I was feeling. Without you I feel so empty like I have no point to be here, when I heard that u passes away that absolutely broke me. I didn’t know if I should be mad or sad, actually I was both I was mad u weren’t gonna be here to listen to me rant or get irrated at the smallest thing. I was mad that I could’ve done something yet I was too afraid to. I was sad that u didn’t tell me something was wrong. I was sad that u couldn’t rely on me. I hated myself so much.