I always hated myself. The way I looked, the way I talked. I just wasn’t like everybody else. I never saw myself as someone worth loving because I wasn’t able to love myself. When I looked in the mirror the person who looked back did not seem as pretty, as intelligent, as funny or as interesting as other people.
I never was the person my parents wanted me to be, I never was the person my friends wanted me to be and worst of all I never even was the person I, myself wanted to be. I guess I always asked myself who that someone was that I wanted to be, because I always tried to be what I thought others wanted me to be. I tried to get good grades for my parents. I laughed in front of my “friends” even though I wanted to cry. I did everything I could to get the love and the attention from my boyfriend.
But it didn’t work out like I wanted it to. My friends don’t know me, my boyfriend left me because in his opinion I didn’t try hard enough. My parents don’t care about my grades. And now I’m sitting, alone in my room, searching for the person I am. Who am I? I’m not the pretty girl, I’d rather read old books than do sports and yes, maybe I’m a bit lazy. Maybe I don’t have the best grades and maybe I am sad, more often than others. I overthink everything and I am kind of boring. But you know what? I am going to stop trying to be someone else, just because I want to be accepted by the wrong people. I am who I am, and I love myself. And you should too. If you really want to love yourself, you should stop pretending. Just be the you that you want to be and someday, I promise you, you will realize how special you are and appreciate it. And when that happens, you’ll also attract the right people.

Thank you for reading xo