Today I found out my best friend is getting married. And like any other good friend I’m super happy for her. Even though she's only 21, she’s at a point of her life where she’s feels ready to take that giant step into marriage.

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Being her best friend, I did share some reservations about her huge decision. One being that she’s still super young. I imagined the both of us spending our early 20s goofing off and having fun. Personally, I feel that marriage comes with a whole new set of responsibilities, that both parties are willing to compromise certain things, becoming a well-functioning team. But again, my girl is the most responsible and capable person I know, and if she says she’s ready I’m taking her word for it. The second problem is that after the wedding (which will be in 4 months), she’s going to move in with her beau. Normally, this wouldn't be an issue but it's pretty obvious. But her fiancé lives all the way in Kansas! Between California and there, that’s over 1,500 miles. I know it’s silly, but I never thought she would ever move to a different state for any reason. Knowing that she’s going to start a new life in an environment really bums me out. But I know I have to put on my big girl pants and just suck it up. I'm sad about it now but I’ll learn to get over it.

On the flip side, I am super happy for her! She’ll be the first of my friends to get married (and so soon too). And since I’m so obsessed with wedding stuff, I will be more than happy to share some ideas and do research to help her out. Of course, I really hope she makes me her matron of honor, but even if she doesn’t, I will be her rock along the way.

My overall feelings about this whole situations is strange; while I’m beyond thrilled about my best friend getting married, I do have the fear of her leaving me behind. I’m at stage of my life where I’m just taking my time with things. Seeing her being thrown into the threshold of adulthood, when I’m still at the cusps of it, make me feel inadequate almost. I wanna be 100% happy for her, but my fears are holding me back. But hey, I just found out about this and, maybe with time, my anxiety will ease a bit. I’ll do my best to stay positive because this is a happy thing! What I can't wait the most is me helping her get ready for the greatest day of her life. And when my day comes, I can only hope she will be there for me, too.

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Please feel free to share your feeling about this <3

Hugs, Jaz