Hi guys :) Hope that all of you had better christmas than I did and that you all are doing okay.

So yesterday I had a huge fight with my best friend. I feel like I have nobody to talk... I searched for ideas how to kill myself. I'm not kidding I had this stupid idea with pills. I feel awful. Like a piece of trash. I don't know what to do...

I feel like everything that includes myself is going to fail. I'm afraid of going back to school and to talk to anyone. She was important to me and now she's gone and I'm all alone with this thoughts about giving up.

Well... a lesson for you guys is hold on tight to your friends and don't let them go like I did... it hurts more than I thought.