christmas has always been my favorite time of the year. no matter the circumstances, i have always been able to find a safe place in christmas festivities. this year was no different. our small family gathered around an equally small round table and enjoyed a complete christmas lunch. by the end of it i was so stuffed and dizzy from the wine, it all felt surreal. my stomach hurt, abused from the food it had missed all these months. but i couldn't bring myself to stop, to be honest i was frightened. some time passed and i felt okay, sleepy. the christmas spirit came back to me. i had a wonderful time with my family and i hope it's even better for new year's. knowing that i'll certainly look back to this year's christmas with joy simply confirms that it'll continue being the calmest holiday of all.