The hardest part. To realise that it's not like it used to be anymore. That I'm not the first person you think of when you wake up or the last person you think of when you go to sleep. That I'm not the first person you would call if you have something to tell. That your heart doesn't beat an extra beat when I call you or text you. That I'm not the person you wan't to spend time with.

To realise that I can't make you happy. All I want is you to be happy, to laugh. I love love love when your smile reaches your eyes. I just feel sorry that I can't give you that. I hate that you make me a better person, you always make me laugh and feel happy and I hate that I can't give you the same because you deserves it. So much.

The hardest part. To start live without you. To realise that I can't ask you to do things with me anymore. That I can't ask you for advise or call you when I have something to tell you. To stop think about you every second of the day. To realise that you're not going to call me. To start doing things for myself. To take care of myself, How do I do?

Just wanted to tell you that I Love You and I'm sorry.