.. I was a coward little girl who is afraid of almost every unknown, I was afraid of the dark, of insects , of storms, of heights, of being alone , of letting things go , of opening up to people and in getting to know strangers.. all I was is a mass of fears and insecurities ...

but then I realized how weak I was.. a million things would've killed me ...every fear was a weak point ,.. so I made a decision .. that if I didn't defeat what scares me ..I won't survive ..I will be a coward to the rest of my life .. I will never be truly alive ... and this is how I started... fighting ..daily battles ..fighting the dark and the heights ... the insecurities, . it was no easy .. it took me years to defeat them all...7 years .. and finally I am free!! actually free.. nothing to be scared of anymore.. I am a normal person now I can live and enjoy life fearlessly like everyone else..

like everyone else?
and that was the biggest irony to ever happen to me! I did everything to be brave ..just to grow up and find out that everyone else are just cowards..cowards who can pretend well! all my friend and family ..everyone I've ever known is a coward hiding behind their own armor..
...living in their fucking comfort zones ..

everyone is so afraid of everything ..they are too afraid to dream big.. they can't even have brave thoughts! they prefer comfort and dull to dangerous and interesting.. even those whom I thought were fearless... they just act crazy to cover up ..I ask myself why I've never noticed this before...maybe because as long as you are a member of the coward society you cant have the insight to distinguish them...but once you have broken free .. you are cursed with eyes that can see everything from above ..and deep from the inside .. and here's the point when everything you've ever known and been familiar with starts to collapse like a system of a dying star....