I had a HUGE argument with my best friend. I don't know if it is my fault or hers. All I know is I can't help but not think about how this is going to turn out.
I am always filled with paranoia that haunts me. My worrying overwhelms me. I am not depressed just paranoid. I think. I can't explain how I feel. I think it's just because I'm a teenager, but is it? Or is it my past trying to sneak up on me, telling me how this should play out? How do I fix this? My solution is either music or books, however, neither seems to be helping.
I haven't had a bad life. But it doesn't mean that I've not had a day in my that haunts me or overwhelms me. Is it something that will eventually go away? I hope so because it's the worst feeling that I've ever felt.
The thought of losing my best friend is unbelievably terrifying. It's like someone is taking a shovel and trying to pry out half of my heart just to step on it. I want to try and grab something to pull me out and help me back on my feet but I don't trust anything around me. I don't want to grab the wrong rope to help me escape and it crumbles me even farther then the whole I'm in...