Tired I'm just tired.
I know I'm only 17 but I'm tired , it's not the kind of tired where you sleep and you are just ok is different is like you just want to disappear for 10 months or for a week or forever. I'm tired of everything and nothing.
I'm tired, of people, of college, of my family I just want to switch off and maybe later switch on but I can't I just can't do that.
I'm tired of everything and I'm tired of nothing.
I just want to be able to lay back without worrying about nothing. I'm tired of worrying, of thinking over and over again.
I'm tired of doubting myself, of not trusting my abilities ,of my inferiority complex, of the idea that I've made in my mind that I'm not worth it, that I'm not worth the trouble.
Most of all I'm tired of my mind, I'm tired of looking at myself and feeling like I look like shit. I'm tired of not being able to talk, to talk, to anyone about how I feel. I'm tired of being an introvert, of not being able to make friends quickly, of not being able to talk to everyone, I'm tired of my personality, I'm just am.
I'm tired of people telling me that: "OMG yeah I know what you mean" or "everyone was times like that" like DUDE WTF? The fact that it happens to you won't make me feel any less like shit like what the actual fuck!
I'm tired of not being able to sleep, of thinking about things that won't happen to me, of daydreaming about a life I won't have, I'm tired of being scared, I'm tired of public transport.
I'm tired of everything, and nothing.